we are always pretending. we brush our teeth ten times better right before we go to the dentist’s office than we ever do otherwise. we choke back tears in public because it is the thing to do. and we are always attempting to feel less. we respond to the dentist when she tries to make small talk…
It’s been a good 3 years, psychologicallyaddictive
Sitting outside under the morning sun. Man does this feel good.
So many things have been overwhelming me within this past week. One— school starting. There’s nothing that pisses me off more than un-behaved high schoolers just waiting to make a scene. Two— how I’m about to deal with this enormous amount of change. The majority of my friends have graduated. And lastly, three— how to go about my daily business with a smile. That’s the last thing I want to fake this year.
It’s strange how music can make you feel so alive.. after being buried in your covers for nearly 4 days. It’s strange how music can make your sad spirit want to get up and dance and rejoice in the strength you’re about to proceed with. It’s strange how music can make you feel GOOD and okay with everything you weren’t okay with 10 minutes ago. I need to stop being sad. I need to pick up my little self and indulge every opportunity life is about to throw at me. Forget everyone else.
if you want to text me, and ask me that way.. I’ll tell you